happy birthday baby! four months ago today at this exact moment (2:45pm), you and i were bonding for the first time. you were born at 2:17 pm and immediately put on my chest where i just stared at you as i adjusted to the fact that i had actually survived labor and you were finally in my arms. and you have barely left them since.
earlier in the week, your Godparents came for a lovely visit and we spent our first night apart since you attended your first overnight away from me during their stay. it was not as hard as i thought it would be and i'm glad you got to spend such quality time with two beautiful people who clearly love you very much. i suspect you will have some wonderful adventures with them.
sadly, the rest of the week(and now!) you have been very unhappy. maybe you're teething a bit, but mainly you have a rather nasty little case of eczema on your cheeks which seems to keep you pretty miserable. breaks my heart to see you trying your hardest to scratch and rub the rashes and i so dearly wish it was me who was suffering. though suffer i do(gladly,with love)because i am not sleeping at night trying to keep you comfortable, as you seem to only not fuss and get real sleep when wrapped tightly in my arms. otherwise you squirm and cry while trying to relieve the itch. as tired as i am, i am so glad that i can provide you the comfort you need.
i love you cutie patootie. and stop scratching!
